Thursday, February 5, 2009

The 100th

I noticed this is my 100th post on here. I wish I could celebrate, but I don't have it in me. Jenn is still on this side of forever, but it's hard to know for how long, or if the miracle will come. I tried to exist normally today, and for anyone not looking too hard, I did. But I hurt. I hurt really bad. And I don't want to talk about it, or acknowledge it, or anything, because that will make it real. And the more real it is, the more I feel that I have already given up on her, and I can't do that. I have to hope against hope, because she would do the same. I don't know what will happen. But right now, the middle ground? It sucks.

6 comments:

Alicia said...

I'll be praying for you.

Cara said...

I'm praying for Jenn and for you.

Heather's dad said...

Jenn passed on today. She will be missed.

-John

Tina said...

What the hell who is that Heathers Dad?

CowTown said...

:(


cowtown

maryse said...

thank you for sending me that note in ravelry. and thank you for letting me know. i'm sitting here crying for a girl i never met, that's how much she touched me. i will miss her. send her family my condolences, will you?