Sunday, February 8, 2009

Still Blank

I feel like I need to write something, but I have no idea what that should be. Just watching the cursor blink, trying to figure out what I should say... how i can express how I feel.

Right now, I can't imagine what her family feels like. With CF, you always know that early death is almost inevitable... but it's not supposed to come so swiftly.

I spent yesterday, finding all the places that I knew her. Looking at pictures. Tyring to figure out if she left with any regrets. Trying to figure out if I left anything unsaid. I don't think I did. But that doesn't really comfort me right now.

I am taking care of myself... I'm actually doing better about doing that right now. I keep trying to think what I can do to make myself feel that I am honoring her. That I'm doing what she would want for me. Right now, that's taking care of the physical the best I can, while the emotional works its way through.

7 comments:

Amy said...

I did that today and yesterday. Looking through her pictures on FB and myspace. She was so happy and beautiful....so sad.

(((HUGS)))

Heather's dad said...

Hi Talana,

While she was here for far too little time, I like to think Jenn left this world without any regrets. She was a kind, sweet person and very much in love with a wonderful guy named Andy that really completed her. She will be dearly missed.

John

Meghann "Queen of the O2 People" said...

I was so sorry to hear of Jenn's passing. I didn't really know her that well, but she was a facebook friend. I can't imagine the pain you're feeling since you knew her soo much better than I did. I pray for her family during this time and I hope that their pain and yours lessens a little with each day that passes.

Meghann

Heather's dad said...

Remembering Jenn:

Jenn's Wake @ Tancrell Jackman's Funeral Home
35 Snowling Rd, Uxbridge, MA 01569
Friday February 13th @ 10:00am to 11:30am
A few words from the Priest from 11:00am to 11:30am

Jenn's Party/Food & Drink Service in the Event Hall @ St Mary's Parish Church
71 Mendon St, Uxbridge, MA 01569
Friday February 13th @ 11:30am +

So Basically from 10-11am is the meet and greet with the family, Jenn was cremated so the Urn will be there with some pictures of Jenn. At 11:00 the Priest will say a few words and when thats done we'll be going to the Hall at the Church where they'll be food and drink.

There won't be a funeral.

Cookie said...

Thank you for letting me know and thanks to Heather's dad for the details.

Jenn was a funny, talented, lovely young woman who loved her friends and supported all of us through life's trials. I cannot believe she is gone, but I am thankful that she is no longer suffering.

*hugs*

Vera H. said...

So deeply sorry to hear about Jen. I had been thinking about the last project she posted on Ravelry, that beautiful crocheted blanket.

Chie said...

Since Jenn first started her blog, I had been a regular visitor. I remember many photos of the lovely young lady showing her projects happily. I have never met Jenn in person, but she became a friend I'd always wonder and want to know how she was doing if she didn't post for a while. I will miss her, and I will always remember her.